Pleasure && Pain

Sunday, January 30, 2005

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heys! decided ta update. heh.
the adam khoo workshop was nicee lor.
to tink tat i tot it was some brainwashing ting.
diao. haha.
glad i wen ther. heh.
gary rocks!
so does cherie. hehex.

stil haben decide on my long term goal though.
lik wat career all these.
bt kinda decided on wat i wanna do nw and wat sch i wanna go and all.
yay. haha.
some stuffs happened at de wrkshop oso lah.
happy ones. unhappy ones.
suan le. muz kan kai dian. heh.
glad ta hab all my fwens!
esp. jenn, anqi, qiao and pat.
yup. took de dunno wat pledge.
i'l help jenn, kejun and bryan ta achieve their goals.
yay. haha.

cant help feeling tat im a jinx at times.
--". seriously lor. i ke4 everybodi de lei.
dun believe ask jenn.
hiakhiak.
how ar. i used ta wang everybody de.
since dunno wen i started ke-ing everyone.
haish. =(

having terrible cramps nw >.<
started on fri, wen i was running around de sch.
suay right. haish.
tml stil got p.e. lei. aiyo.
cramps cramps cramps.

lame gor say i tink too much.
therefore i upset myself and throw tantrums to ppl arund me.
hiakhiak.
is it within my control?
shall try not to be so sensitive.
nonono. not try.
MUST not be so sensitive.
heh. totally garyfied.

oh yah. JENN ANQI QIAO PAT!! TAKE CARE K!! SICK LIAO. MUST DRINK A LOT OF WATER!!
water is the solution. lolx.
hw cum evrybody sick i not sick ar.
got prob liao. haha.
dun tell me is i ke4 them de.
argh. cannot be cannot be.

thanks turtle for the eeyore puppet!
so cute. haha.
nw i got 12 eeyores. big and small.
hehex.

thanks daddy for the 2 cds!
i prefer the 2nd disc ta de 1st disc.
but i stil prefer the 1st disc ya burned.
the one gib boiboi de. haha.

going ta shop for valentines pressies nxt sat.
wit jenn. hehe.
looking forward. lolx.
yupp.

mus work hard liao.
motivated! haha.
nw im more positive liao.
nice. realised tt i shudnt hate myself.
cuz i dun hab de right to.
heh. so muz b happy!

lubz!

.i wanna live a life of no regrets.

{ danced @ 12:45 PM )

Saturday, January 22, 2005

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heys! decided ta update. hahz.
ummm. dunno wat ta say too.
nth much happened recentli.
juz tt got lotsa hmwrk for de weekend.
haish.

looking forward ta de adam khoo wrkshop!
haha. tink it'd b kinda fun.

ther'r lotsa stars these days.
yay. hehex.
frm my hse here can c.
got 3 stars tt form a line.
den on the left of the 3 stars ther's this star tts kinda isolated frm other stars.
and i tink its of a different colour frm de others.
cool right. heh.
somehow the stars seem quite near ta us.
since we can see it, they cant b far right?
but someone told me they're actually very very very very far away.
but we can see them!
-fascinated-

been eating quite a lot these days.
take for example, my breakfast which i just had.
1 pc cheesecake, 1 pc pandan cake and one packet of dunno wat fruit.
ren shen guo. if u noe wat i mean.
grr. am very full now.
but somehow i'll get hungry by lunchtime.
then i'll binge again, thinking tat i'd skip dinner.
but then, as expected, i'd have dinner as per normal.
and sometimes i still do eat late at night, like half an hr before i slp.
haish. pat! help me! ='(
i wonder hw did i manage ta jian fei in the past.
i oways managed ta control myself in the past.
haish.

ytd fabby sent me movie clip of their vb match.
cool. bt they're really fast.
cudnt really catch wat are they doing.
but its cool lor. heh.
so long nvr play vb le.
bball oso quite long le. haha.

everybody seems ta be falling sick.
take care lei!
yup. tats all.

{ danced @ 11:34 AM )

Saturday, January 15, 2005

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heys. wen ta sch today wit kejun and xingying.
woke up in time ta eat breakfast,
but scared ltr vomit those sour yellow liquid again.
haiz. sad case rt.
got food, got time, but cant eat.
haish. --"

denz saw yang and jiaying. haha.
hmm. dun reali rmb lessons.
dinz fall aslp today. hahz.
tink its cuz veri few lessonz.
and PE! haish.
i grew 1cm, but i gained 1kg too!
--". i'd rather nt grow.
depressed. traumatised.
pat shud noe. haha.
and i realli run lik a turtle nw.
haish haish.

was drawing my handbk for the whole of SS.
bored mah. dun lik SS at all.
bt tink mr yong is more interesting than mr neo.
heh.

ate in canteen aft sch.
had some crabmeat+egg+peas.
tink its nicee. bt they say quite disgusting.
haha. bt its oni 50cents mah.
denz qiao gtg for guides.
anqi and fab wen ta town i tink.
yup.

so kazhua, kejun, clement, pat and me wen ta cheng san cc ther play bball!
haha. met some andersonians ther too.
niceeeeeee.
pat gtg for choir at 2pm.
den kazhua gtg at 2.45pm.
bt ken joined us.
yup. and i was the oni gal.
denz we played wit the seniors.
they were frm 4/8 wen we were in sec 2.
yup. and they're realli nice.
seriously. they didnt pc me wen im de oni gal.
and wen i play so badly.
haha. kept throwing de ball ta me altho i cant shoot.
diao. haha.
and they veri funny de. keep laughing. haha.

aft playing for quite long, we took a break.
pat came and joined us.
wen ta get drinks and all.
denz kinda sat dwn and chatted.
one of them called weizhi.
nice guy lah.
another guy oso quite funny and nice.
bt he very thin. haha.

denz bryan and ken wen ta join them for their game.
me and kejun setted the bball awhile while chatting wit pat.
haha. denz wen we were bout ta leave,
pat wanted ta play wit dean they all.
de st john ppl. yup.
so we played.
it was sth like 6 on 5?
haha. and our grup had 3 guys and 2 gals.
theirs had 6 guys. --"
we lost, as expected.
haha. bt hab fun jiu hao. heh.

denz some st john ppl gtg.
left kazhua and another guy.
and de 5 of us lohs. haha.
so we played...
nt reali tat fun le. mayb im tired.

so we wen ta kfc.
reached at arun 7+pm?
yup. haha. ate lohz.
original chicken lik machiam no skin likdat.
no nice. haish.

den wen ta playground.
saw some seh ppl playin a seh game.
dunno wat isit called.
its lik vb using legs oni.
they very powderful de lor.
lik can split de.
and spike over the net using leg!
pat wanted ta learn --"
i rather use hands than legs. haha.
vb! lolx.

actualli ken, kejun, pat and me were chatting away.
bryan fell aslp btw. lolx.
denz ther r some irritating kids.
asked us ta go away!
mei da mei xiao. hmmph.

yup. tts all lor.
took mrt home.
denz bathed. wah shuang manz.
whole day wear de PE shirt.
eeks. haha.
washed my hair too. lolx.

den my feet veri pain nw.
cuz got like 4 ultra big blisters.
and its realli big lor.
2 of them are as big as my largest toe.
ouch!
was poking them wit the needle just nw.
nt reali painful lah.
c de liquid flow out veri shiok. haha.
oki okie. lolx.
bt de liquid veri weird de.
its lik veri veri diluted blood.
abit red red. haha.
den got one more like blister-wannabe.
i not sure, so better dun go poke. haha.
yup. and im tanned!
unevenly. --"

yupyup. tts all. haha.
cya!

{ danced @ 3:54 PM )

Friday, January 14, 2005

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arghh. ytd was a kit-kat white chunky-free day.
and guess wat, i just finished one just now.
haish. --"
tats makes it 7 bars in 8 days.
im going ta quit kit kat white!
grrr.

forgot how was lessons today.
the oni ting i rmbr was dozing off almost evri lesson.
hmmm.
gonna slp early today.
i mean EARLY. 10pm.
yupyup.
if nt i wun b able ta concentrate during lessons.

oh yah. kept seeing yjc students these few days.
yang sent me a pic of yjc guys wearing pink polo tees.
--". and of so many yjc guys i saw lately,
only one was shuai.
haha. so im not going ta yjc.
blehhs.

kazhua kinda promised ta play bball wit me tml!
yay! haha.
shall ask as many ppl as possible.
miss those days wen we wud cheong outside sch ta play bball aft sch.
haha. swb.
kinda miss bball. haha.

mdm wong mentioned sth bout muscles turning into fats.
guess tat's wats happening ta me now. --"
although i dun realli hab muscles ta start wit.
haish.

hmm. was tinking of some tings.
the whole world seemed ta hab changed.
well, mayb with the exception of some ppl.
but ppl realli seem ta b changing evriday.
and im nt realli used ta it. hahz.
did i change? hmmm.

see, im realli bored. haha. so i've got shoutouts below! haha.

_HAPPY BDAE FABBY GOR_

PAT - heys gal, thanks for the niceee card! haha. hmmm. cheer up k? dun get demoralised. i'll oways b behind ya! haha. sharon+patricia=fwens 4eva! =))

JENN [DONK'] - heys! i regret cheonging home straight aft sch today. haish. we shud hab wen out or sth. nbm nbm, we shall go out nxt time. lolx. and nw im stuck at home typing tis ting. no life. boo. haha. it's raining donkeys and cows! -winks-

QIAO - ohhh. my rawking partner. lolx. ya seem stressed+nt enuf slp nowadays. hmmm. tink ya shud slp earlier too. lolx. yupyup. jiayou wor! dun so stressed le bahz. =))

ANQI - ehh. long tym nvr play vb le. haha. play wen u and baey r free k? haha. yupyup. hope ur physic mastery went well today. haha. ya r a nicee fwen. rock on! =))

KEJUN - heyhey! paisehx for knocking ur head today. haha. hope u're alright. lolx. paiseh lah. who ask u and fabby oways bully me. haha. retribution! haha. oki okie. play vb nxt tym lei! so long nvr play le. haha. thanks for the bear in da cup! =))

{ danced @ 10:23 AM )

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

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heys! im here again. haha.
hmm. lessons were fine today.
yup. although the first period of the day is eng.
--"
not that i really dislike eng, but look at my dearest tcher.
i miss sally lee ='(

didnt really understand chem at first.
but finally managed ta catch it with the help of kejun and qiao.
yay. haha. chem you xi wang le =))

chinese was okay. luckily ther was no re-banding!
so we've got mr tok again! yay!
kinda fell aslp for awhile though.
cant stand the sight of chunks and chunks of chinese characters.
makes me feel slpy. naturally.
but i think the articles were nice and meaningful. =))

got our class photos during recess.
and i got bullied by fabby and kejun. grr.
luckily anqi's on my side. =))
guys are childish lor.
thought they'r supposed ta be more mature and all.
and some of them r nearly one yr older than me!
haha. but its fun lah. hehe.

maths was okay.
lit was alright too.
but time seemed ta crawl during lit.
mayb its bcuz its the last lesson of the day.
tink ms yoong[izit? not sure.] is kinda nice lei.
not bad not bad.
but tink i'l stil prefer sally lee.
suddenly she seemed ta b sooo niceee.
haish.

yup. went off with jenn almost immediately aft lessons.
met lotsa ppl on the way outta sch.
saw eunice and xingying eating opposite sch.
and we wen ta kapo xingying's drink. lolx.
was eating kit-kat white chunky[again] on the way.
i had 1 bar per day for 5[or was it 6?] days now.
hafta stop. haish. shall nt eat it tml.

went ps de carrefour[izit spelt like tis? lolx.].
bought luan's pressie.
then we went ta mac for... lunch? haha.
i have ta call the hotline ta inform them the loss of my ezlink card.
and request them ta transfer my points to my current card.
diao. so troublesome. --"
we had the twister fries!
find it realli nicee. haha.

chatted a lot, since it've been quite some time since we went out tgtr.
happy happy =))

wah. wat a long entry. haha.
hmmm. anw, i tink i've cheered up a lot le. hehe.
all thanks to food? haha.
nah. all thanks to fwens. =))

oh yah, kejun and me went ta hab prata ytd.
the prata shop we wen was quite ex.
bt kinda worth it. haha.
lurrvee the milk prata! haha.
i finished one whole milk prata.
kejun had chicken murtabak and cheese prata.
not bad too. but milk prata still the best.
gonna try the choco, strawberry and mushroom prata some other time.
hehe. anybody wan eat prata find me k? haha.
ther's a straight bus frm amk.

we saw this group of interesting guys ther.
ther were about.. 7 of them?
yup. they were wondering out ALOUD whether if we're from anderson.
and dumb kejun answered them. --"
they were taking pictures of us using their hp.
ther goes my peaceful lunch. >.<
had ta keep looking away. jialatz.

yupyup. hmm. going out for dinner later.
that's bout all! ta-da! =))

{ danced @ 11:03 AM )

Sunday, January 09, 2005

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hmmm. wen ta watch fockers today.
wit pat and kejun. mugged a lil' b4 tat.
green apple juice rocks! haha.

stil craving for my kit kat white chunky.
i've already had like 4 bars of tat tis week.
diao. cannot cannot. hmm.

din find fockers realli nice and funny.
din quite understand the jokes lah.
and some of them quite leng. hahaz.
pat din find it very nice too.
jenn is weird. hahaz.

hmm. nth much ta update.
tink staying back in sch ta mug tml.
gotta mug lah.
haben eben finished reading tru chem.
jialatz. stil gotta memorise stuffs.
-stressed-
bt kinda glad tt lessons r starting tml.
its betta than some career guidance talk.
totalli boring and all. yup.
prefer lessons. hahz.

yupyup. ttz all. =))

{ danced @ 8:57 PM )

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hmm. updating againz.
fei hua. --"
haish.

got my prata today. hehex.
altho its just frm dwnstairs. nt tt nicee.
but oh wells, its prata aft all. =))
and i just finished a bar of ever-so-nicee kit kat white chunky.
yumyum.
and i had egg tarts too. yup.

ohh. one whole paragraph dedicated ta food.
hmm. tis entry specially for jenn and pat!
yup. da gurlz reali cheered me up. =))
the taggs and the msn chat just now.
realli thanks thanks thanks! =))
special thanks ta ah gong, kejun and lame gor too!
tho i doubt ur wil read tis. hahz.

hmmm. i dunno lei.
haish. hmm. k lah. dunno hw ta say.

mayb watching meet the fockers tml.
happy happy =))
bt still gotta mug.
probably before or aft watching bahz.
jiayou sharon!
dun tink bout other stuffs le.

bing is so cute. haha.
today he pretended ta be studying.
said sth lik "bu yao chao wo lah, wo yao du shu."
interesting huh.
and wen we accidentally hit him wit the ball he was unaffected.
totally absorbed in the chinese book.
as if he knows wats going on. --"
but its cute lah. haha.
even bing's more hardwrking than me! ugh.

hmmm. pat just told me bout sth she read on the papers ytd.
ther'z tis guy who has 4 daughters and a son.
and the youngest daughter cant talk and walk.
somebody told him bout tis herb tt can cure his daughter if he bathed her in it everyday.
so he went ta pluck it everyday, until he met wit an accident and passed away on that hill.
the family cudnt even afford a coffin for him.
so sad right. haix.
life's a tragedy.

wah. tis entry is long man. hahaz.
hmmm. im nt going ta sew never or sth.
im not going ta hurt him again.
one hole is enough. hahz.
i'l just leave it ther bahz. hmmm.
somemore i may just hurt myself too.
its better ta leave it like tis,
rather than ta hurt myself trying ta mend the hole.
if i touch never, he'l bleed again.
so i'd just leave him alone. yup.
altho i realli wanna hug it again. hahaz.
i sound so porn, soft toys oso say til likdat.
hahaz. ahs watever. haha.

shall end here. budbye! =))
i'll be strong. i'll try ta be strong. even if i fail, i'll appear strong.

{ danced @ 3:50 PM )

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heys. changed my blog add.
and the layout as well.
yup i noe, its orange.
bt i tink it looks okie. hmmm.

tot bout alot last night.
just lying in bed and tinking.
hmmm. dunno wat happened ta me recentli.
mayb i shud reali forget bout evriting.
tt'll make me happier?
bt y shud i be happy?
cant i be sad?

hmm. yup.
stil lost. aft all tat tinking.
sometimes i noe wat i shud do.
but knowing it doesnt equals to being able ta do it.
bahhhs. craps. --"

hmmm. nothing ta update le. cyas tonight! =))

{ danced @ 4:15 AM )

Friday, January 07, 2005

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hmmms. updating againz.
dunno wat ta say tho.
hahas. juz turned dwn ta play bball tml.
wats wrong? wats wrong?
hmmm. mayb its just the combi. lolx.

never is bleeding. ='(
haish. evritings going wrong.
watever. lolx.

hmmm. mayb i shud tink in tis way.
wats meant ta be will be.
yupyup. i'l just shun qi zi ran.
let go bahz. hmmm.
it'd b hard. bt i'l try.
i promise.

{ danced @ 11:43 PM )

Thursday, January 06, 2005

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hmm. everibodi'z fascinated tt sharon updated. hahz.
nth much ta do recentli mah. bored.
evribodi gt all those ccas and other stuffs.
ive none. shud i b glad or wat. lolx.

wells. i forgot wat happened today.
all i rmbr is tt i dinz get my prata.
grr. my prata.
i'l geddit some time next wk. =))

heys im addicted ta some "old" songs.
as in, nt recent de.
im a lagginz cow ya c. hmmm.
ni ting de dao + yuan you hui!
wo rang ni zou le + yuan xin.
nicee songs.
-sharon feels outdated-
oh wells.

haben mug yets. dunno y. no mood.
no mood for aniting actualli.
wats happening ta me?
dunno. dunno.

cyas! =))
i seem ta b losing evriting. mayb not evriting. bt loads. losing myself. losing ppl. i dunno.

{ danced @ 10:27 PM )

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

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heys. updating again. hmm.
everybody mugging recentli. hmmm.
not realli in da mood ta mug.

hmm. dunno wat ta say. hahz.
wen ta help sort out the stuffs ppl donated.
for the tsunami ting.
kinda meaningful lah. yup.
had lotsa fun wit jenn and qiao too.

ttz kinda all. hahz.
dunno y i came ta update oso.
wells. cya.
haix. dunno wats wrong wit me. juz dun feel gud everyday. mood swings. nothing seems wrong. yet it feels weird. dun feel like doing anyting. i just wanna slp.

{ danced @ 7:55 PM )

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

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hmm. sch reopened on mon[duh].
juz changed layout. tot it was nicee.
nth much happened today.
wen ta the NEWater plant.
jenn, qiao, me , kejun and kazhua were having pinic on the bus.
the trip ther was rather peaceful.
so unlike us =
wen ta lunch wit qiao, qi, kaiqing, kejun and fab.
amk kfc. bryan joined us shorty after.
me and qiao went home while the rest of them went for vb training.

hmmm. wat went wrong?
some tings seem ta hab changed..
haish =(

wells, mayb im just too sensitive.
tink too much. hahz.
hmmm. dun care lah.

{ danced @ 5:29 PM )