Pleasure && Pain

Sunday, February 19, 2006

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{ danced @ 11:33 AM )

Friday, February 17, 2006

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i swear i didn't mean to skip school today! it's actually the inevitable result of getting merely 5 hrs of sleep for 3 days in a row. getting to school on time wasn't a problem although i got up later than usual. but the very thought of having to run 2.4km with this aching body of mine, added on to the prospect of having to present the shabbily done GP project first thing in the morning made me convince myself that i would never be able to make it to school on time. moreover, i really did have a slight headache when i woke up this morning, so my decision to stay in bed is warranted (: serhua called me at 7.38am, 2 mins before assembly and asked me if she should pon school --"[she was already in school btw] i told her i'm not going, and she decided to go home. that girl! haha.

currently on the horns of a dilemma! if i were to switch from econs to geog, i'd be leaving my class, which is already abandoned by jiahao who's migrating, as well as jiesheng and junyu who are going over to tj. many were very upset when i said i may be changing combi, cos then our cls would really split up, and some don't see the point of staying in vj anymore ):. and i really don't wish to leave pegasus! nor do i fancy the idea of a totally new evironment ALL OVER AGAIN. i'm a naysayer of changes. boo! then again, i have totally no confidence in doing well for econs, as compared to geog which i've always been doing well for. sigh.

vday was pretty mundane for me. vj was filled with love though. gift exchanges in the morning with senior class, giving and receiving little gifts from cls and og girls, bla and thats about it. i had especially attached tags with the sweets i gave to everyone, with their names and happy vday on it. and that only made more ppl think that i was from a girls' school --". i'm a proud student of a co-ed school for goodness sake! ANDERSON ROCKS. muahahaha.

after school i had to WAIT for 2hr20 mins for kejun's lesson to be over so that we can WAIT for fabby and anqi to come, and together we'd all WAIT for training to start. --" anyway, the first 2hrs20mins i was sitting in the canteen alone, with hanloong, ronghua, weiming and park taking turns to entertain me --". hanloong came by several times and sang and sang and sang. ronghua sat down and said he was v tired, and soon he fell aslp >.<. weiming and park were trying to teach me a new card game when jiawei came by and when i was done with jiawei, kejun's already released. haha.

training wise, i didn't train much. sigh. i really missed anqi and fabby though, i totally felt like squealing when i saw them in school! [or did i squeal out loud? lol.] god bless fabby's appeal k! hate to see fabby and anqi getting seperated too. aj and vj are like sooooo far apart. i'm looking forward to seeing pat, anqi, jenn, fabby, etc etc in school! OMG!

the highlight of the day was actually dinner at 9+pm at the airport. --" popeye's! TOTALLY YUMMY! can't wait to bring the above mentioned ppl there to eat when they come vj. whee. anyway kejun and i had to queue for like half an hour for the food, because instead of cashiers, they were using calculators. --" so dumb right.

i'm going out soon for fearless!
it's never easy to understand why memories hold our hand, and people let go.. i've been let down by love so many times, but the sad thing is, i'll probably fall for it again.

{ danced @ 1:03 PM )

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

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bing just cut himself on the face, bled and cried like hell. we all told him, don't jump don't jump. he still jumped. --" cried, applied medicine, and stopped crying. the wound would heal over time i guess.

this brings me to the point of this blog entry. i guess we all ignore advices and go ahead and do as we deem fit many times in life. we'll fall and alas! learn things the hard way. tears, medicine, scars. isn't that what we have all grown accustomed to? yet we continue to ignore advices, fall, and the vicious cycle repeats itself. not to say its a bad thing though, we usually emerge wiser, stronger and [insert good quality here]. but more often than not, we grow wary of everybody and everything. for one, i'm certainly more wary about things now. well, at least that's what i hope. then again, i thought i wouldn't commit the same mistakes twice, but i tend to do exactly that. argh. what's the point of this paragraph? -pulls hair-

sigh. i really really really miss anderson v v v v v much. i miss going to school, eating my cream rolls at my seat. gossiping with george, entertaining myself by watching the four monkeys in front. cheonging to queue early during recess, having recess with pp i've grown so used to. having someone to go to when i feel like crying, being so close with all the teachers. and most of all, spending time with the same people.. 06s55 and vadiance are great, i love the people so much that i hate to go or to have to see them go. but i still love andersonians more. andersonians at vj may love victorians more now, but i still prefer andersonians.. sigh. on the way to school today, jiaqing and i were whining about missing andersonians etc etc. it feels good to have someone sharing the same thoughts as you. i miss 2005..

the clowns in 06s55 have came up with nicknames for me and me only! why. bully me. haha. they call me shen xian, yun fu and today, cai shen. so lame can. --" grr. but they are a fun bunch la.

i'm still tempted to go ajc. especially after walking to school with jiaqing today, and he told me he's really tempted to go ajc too. hiak.

hmm. valentines coming.

{ danced @ 8:32 PM )

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

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results out on friday!

my whole class is very happy, cos we'd be missing 2 GP lessons, 2 PE lessons and econs, etc. yayness. i really really really x 100 like my cls man! damn slack. let's see how many teachers don't like us already. ms suhana [econs], PE teacher and mdm liew [GP]. all 3 of them scolded us before already >.< i suppose mr kwek doesn't dislike us although we always pon his physics pract, cos he's our CT afterall, and i can't imagine him disliking ppl. lol lol. he says things like "that's totally correct" and "we're rapidly running out of time". lol.

i'm broke! if i don't curb my money spending habit [though it might be a tad too late now --"], my "reserves" are going to deplete. hiak. it doesn't help that valentines just a week away. after some rough calculations, i've came to the conclusion that 100bucks is soooo not sufficient to spend on vday alone. my last resort -> to spend as little as possible on food for tml and thurs.

my mind suddenly went blank. oh well.

been fa-ing hua chi these few days. i think the cute ogl's in pegasus too! yayness. hehe.

i want a romantic prince who loves me! (:

*smacks myself on the forehead*

{ danced @ 8:01 PM )

Saturday, February 04, 2006

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after watching "I Not Stupid Too" with my ma, my sis, jenn, jiawei and yiyang, i realised that i don't really know how to cry anymore. felt that sour feeling in the nose, that feeling that my heart was sinking many many times, but i really didn't cry. its almost like i forgot how to cry, or have i cried enough? i guess that's a good thing though, i don't wanna cry already. (:

nonetheless, that movie was great! strongly recommended for those who haven't caught it yet, and i may watch it again!

mahjong yesterday! i found out that i tend to win when i'm feeling unhappy but lose when i'm happy. maybe heaven wants to cheer me up too. haha.

oh yah, we really sang birthday songs today! it's ren ri. yay. made a dumb wish though, abit regret now already. there's almost 0% chance of it coming true, so if it really comes true -i'll tell ur if it does, i can be super duper sure that my birthday wishes really will come true! haha.

listening to s.h.e's new album [my sis bought it, so i benefit! yay!]. nice. so many breakup songs. haha. but all songs quite nice. haha.

according to jiawei we're going to get our results on mon! omg. feel so jittery suddenly. whee. i hope myself, 06S55, vadiance, jiawei, kejun, ningxin, bryan, bla bla bla stay in vj. and i hope pat comes to vj! yay. *crosses fingers* hopefully everyone do well too. wanna see ppl shed tears of joy, not sad cries. yup.

hmm. i think im better than her la. bad taste.

{ danced @ 11:33 PM )

Thursday, February 02, 2006

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have you ever had a birthday wish come true? well, mine did, just that i found myself hoping that i had wished for something else instead. nevertheless, god has been kind enough to grant me that wish. i can hardly remember what birthday wishes i had made except for the last one, but i'm convinced that birthday wishes do come true. so i've decided on the wish for my 17th birthday, though circumstances may or may not change it. maybe i'd get a cake for my whole family on chu 7, for all of us to make wishes. in case u all don't already know, chu 7 is ren2 ri4, meaning that it's everyone's birthday! or at least that's what my parents tell me. when's chu 7 by the way? i didn't keep track of the days.

i'm really taken aback by the change that took place in the past month in everybody. looking around me, chatting with ex-classmates and through hear-say, everybody seems to have changed. apparently the change did not take place over a period of time, if not i'd be able to accept it. i'm resistant to changes la, though most of the times they're good. it's like i really can't recognise some ppl anymore. are the new friends i've made different a month ago too?

fortunately, most people i hold close to my heart didn't change much. i love the same old them. is it that difficult to stay unchanged? i really abhor changes, though i got to admit its part and parcel of growing up. i mean, its inevitable isn't it? its so contradicting, sometimes i really don't know what i really want as well.

on a happier note, i really love my class now! 06S55. one of the disadvantages of studying in vj when i live in yishun is that all my friends live at the other end of the island. yesterday we went to han loong's house to chill, and i had to leave at 7 plus. jian min walked me to kembangan mrt, which was like 1+km away from his house. later i also learnt from him that they left at 10+, and most of them reached home at 11. i reached home at 9 can!

talking about han loong's place, its really cool! we only went to the basement of his semi-D, and that place holds a ping-pong table, a drum set, a keyboard[?], a treadmill, a television set and a full set of sofa. we opened up a mahjong table and there was still much space left! what a perfect place to chill. wei ming tried to teach ser hua, jian min and i how to drum. it was fun lah, although i further confirmed my lack of talent in music. >.<

today some of us pon-ed mr kwek's physics pract [like, again.]. ser hua, xin yi, jia hao, jie sheng, jun yu and i went for lunch at tampines mall. felt like a mountain turtle most of the time. >.< they are a funny bunch~~of bananas~~! lol. after lunch we saw.......... nvm. haha.we just went for an innocent walk :)

i love mass dances! although my first encounter with friendship dance was erm.. jialat. but consequently it was fun! i danced with a cute ogl *blush* once, i was clumsy but he taught me the stuff patiently. (: teeheehee. but i rarely see him, so my guess is that he's not in pegasus. ): ytd i danced with jian min, it was funny cos we didn't know the steps well and he's soooo tall, like 185cm. there's this step the girl is supposed to like spin the guy, then the guy must go under the girl's hand. we didn't manage that. hahahaha.

anyway, i hope next time i dance with the cute ogl again. yay yay.

sigh. i regret not treasuring the times with fourthree. really love 06S55 anyway. (:
should i wait for you? maybe one day..

{ danced @ 7:21 PM )