Pleasure && Pain

Thursday, August 31, 2006

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went back to anderson today! had fun meeting everybody, seeing that most people are more or less the same, while unfortunately some people grew fat (including myself). but i think pat grew slimmer! i think pat loves me now. lol.

had fun sitting at the hod room with mdm wong (as usual) and her cardboard was full of food (as usual) and we ate alot of it (as usual). lol. mdm wong is funny and blubbly (and abit lame) just like before. mr yong is still single, available and unwanted. mrs ang gave birth to triplets. mdm tey kept her hair long. mrs goh's hairline is still receding. mr tay still rmb all our names (in chinese of course), and he said he's been mugging our names all night last night. haha. the security guard's belly is still enormous, we are still required to sign in before entering the school.

the girls still laugh at whatever jokes even if its not funny (except fabby's of course). george is so tall now. edmund is the president of some weird club. jiji is the vice pres of s&t, treasurer of green link, ct rep and taking chem h3. fabby and kazhua are still as smelly as ever. dean and kazhua are still so crap. meiping and xingying cut their fringe. luan cut her hair short again. hongxiang is still so lame (call my name and look away, caused me to look like an idiot looking all around) and skinny. rosie had half her shirt tucked into her skirt which cuts her calves into half. npg still hangs out tgtr. some people are still scary as ever. some are still ugly as ever. nothing much changed. i do miss anderson so much.

sat around a stone table gossiping abt weewee (codename. hahaha.) was hilarious. went to suki sushi with pat and anqi and we ate surprisingly little. wonder if thats a good or bad thing. hahas. took super nice neoprints. fabby still called pat and i occasionally to ask anqi to check her phone. then anqi had to go and pat and i went to walk ard. talked alot. i love pat. so much. i feel so at ease with her, like totally myself. i can talk english and chinese whenever i feel like it. somehow i feel that she wouldnt judge me negatively. we can gossip endlessly abt everybody and i dun feel guilty at all with her and we both know we wouldnt backstab each other. we can look at earrings, shoes, soft toys, be thick-skinned, criticise the shop in front of the shopkeepers, try on stupid hairbands and stuff, and many many more. life seems so much brighter after meeting up with her. i love her so much!

friends at jc are nice too. guess im fortunate to even have a clique tt calls ourselves a clique (is there clique dinner tonight? lets have a clique outing. she's from our clique leh. etc etc). i didnt expect it at all, i tot i'd only have hi-bye friends in my two years at vjc. but somehow i still open up to anderson ppl more, cos i feel like im being judged the whole time at vj. its so scary to be afraid of being yourself. anderson people find me really fun when im noisy while vjc people say im not demure behind me. i can gossip with anderson ppl without feeling guilty but if im scared if i gossip like how i did to vjc people they'll say im mean and bitchy behind me. anderson ppl recognise the weird people but vjc people are so nice they never gossip abt ppl other than splinter groups. there seem to be no vjc ppl that are completely trustable. anderson ppl are friends with their teachers but vjc ppl cant seem to imagine being close with their teachers. i think none of them play bball with their form teacher and help him solve his r/s (or the lack of) problems, take train with their chinese teacher, eat and GOSSIP with their maths teacher, bla bla bla. its just different. there's just this need to cover myself with something, perhaps a mask, in vj.

i really dun understand how can people not go back to their secondary schools today.

its weird feeling an invisible distance btwn u and the people u were once so close to, and acting like old friends with people u didnt even talk much to in the past. some people were busy acting so shou with everybody. hahaha i found it quite weird.

suddenly, i really dont feel like growing up. i feel like im really too weak, so not fit for the world out there yet. i cant do anything alone. if now im already feeling vulnerable to life, how am i going to survive after 1year plus? sigh. then again, i cant wait for the l*p* with pat when we grow up. HAHAHA.

sometimes i feel like people like to put me down to make themselves feel better. but i think they dun even realise it.

i met my pri sch friend on the train today! omg she's so pretty! anderson people, imagine a person who gives the yiwen feeling but has eyes bigger than pat's. felt weird though, cos we smiled at each other when i boarded the train. then she was hugging and kissing her boyfriend while i was around two steps away alone. --"

my house is scary. its 12am now and there's hammering sound above my flat. i bet soon there'll be marble sounds. its freaking me out. i wished i'd never watched any scary films and read all the scary storybooks.

ta-da~ the one wk holiday ahead is so not enough. sigh.

{ danced @ 10:55 PM )

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

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today's a one-sided special day.

took 55 and then 854 home today, after trying to decide on where to go for eons with clar, pearly and clement. the ppl in 55 are uber noisy, they talk like the person beside them has hearing problems and cough like nobody's business. to make things worse, they all smell like the market. yucks.

my right leg's aching like mad, it hurts even to walk, im just short of limping. its frustrating cos i didnt even stretch much during the last training cos it was already painful then. ): i like to stretch, i wonder what's wrong and how long will i take to recover ):

samuel got into trouble with the pe dept. tsk. i dunno what the others think, but the pe teacher is very immature to me. ok we all know that teachers are also human, but if he's a teacher (and supposedly a good tempered one) i think he should be more mature than this. i mean, which teacher throws tantrums just because we want to change game (and phrased it in a very nice manner)? someone said we were very ap cos when he asked who wants to change game we stood up. but then he was the one who said "those who do not want to play tennis stand up, i need to know whether it is just an individual's opinion or the class's". then we stood up and he got so pissed he did so many childish things. a person who throws tantrums when he cannot have what he wants is childish. full stop.

vj's full of weird teachers, so unlike anderson. i only like loke and kwek here, just like how kj only likes foo (and the liking is mutual) and how clement only likes foo and ng. HAHA.

people ard me are quite weird nowadays. pearly seems to have alot inside her, jeremy seems to be always stoning, qichao seems quiet suddenly, kj seems to be mood swinging all the time, bla bla bla. and the thing is im so tired myself that i'd rather stone than probe. guess everybody just need a break. and that break starts from tmr (:

are we having a clique outing cum dinner and/or mugging slpovr? sounds like alot of fun! (:

alot of things went through my mind when i was taking bus the past week and i told myself to blog about them. strangely enough, i cant seem to be able to rmb a thing, not even today's bus-journey-thoughts. oh wells.

the best things always come when they're the least expected, and the grass always look greener on the other side. so people, dun expect too much and get ur hopes dashed and treasure whatever u have now. (:

i love u.

{ danced @ 11:08 PM )

Saturday, August 19, 2006

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so, i fell sick again. ): kept waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose last night. so poor thing right. im just so not used to falling sick! if im not wrong, the last time i had a flu was wayyyyyyy long time ago, maybe when i was a kid or something. had slight fever this morning and missed training again!

i probably spent less than an hour on my feet today, excluding when im bathing. kejun brought 4 big mooncakes to my house today, i kept stuffing my face in them, and u guys cant imagine how fattening mooncakes really are. ): gone were the days i eat mooncakes without worrying about gaining weight (my highest record was 6 big mooncakes and 8 mini mooncakes in a single day!). moreover, im still gonna learn how to make mooncakes one day, probably from kejun's mum! haha, after i get rid of the phobia of other people's parents =x

the whole weekend will probably be wasted again, since there's pw at zhibo's place and dinner with clar pearly dawn sam after that. (: looking forward to having fun. hahas. however, it means that im not going to catch up with what i missed last wed and thurs, and there's still mock spa skill a and lecture assessment to mug for lar. so dead.

promos are coming! which also means tt promos are gonna be over hahaha. looking forward to the sleepovers, pw cheonging (my grup's fun ok!), chalets, catching up with anderson ppl, hong kong trip, cambodia trip, malaysia trip (maybe hahas. =x), shopping, movies, running (hopefully? hahas.) and of course more trainings! haha. yay. cant wait.

sharon, study hard! it'd all be over soon (:

{ danced @ 11:12 PM )

Thursday, August 17, 2006

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HEY! new template. but its lousy ): spent the entire aftnn doing this and i still cant figure out stuff like putting my photos on the top right corner, and somehow i cant host my own image ): shall change it soon.

its really really terrible to fall sick! trust me! ): especially for healthy people like me who dont fall sick. ): on tues when i was on the bus back home, i was trembling like nobody's business lar. couldnt get a cab and my ever so lazy mum refused to pick me up, and my dad didnt answer his phone. ): nobody dared to sit beside me on the bus. haha. felt alot better after taking a nap on the bus, but mum still insisted that i visit the doc. temp was 38.9 at the docs! and the doc said i had throat infection although my throat was perfectly fine then. but after he said that, my throat got really irritating, until now! ): bet he put some curse on me.

absent from school for two days already. today's so totally BORING! ): ytd was much better (: should have went to sch today lar. the day before ytd my temp was lik 39.6. this morning my temp was 37.2 alr lar. its ok le. dunno who's fault. haha. actually it feels quite shuang to just slack, but i feel guilty, like no exercise, eat all the junk food and never study! ): sadsad.

supposed to not exercise for two weeks but i think im gonna ignore that weird doc's advice. its just some ulu clinic below my block. ha. and he gave me pmacetamol(sp?) AGAIN. i think i have at least 4 variations of the same drug alr lar. its just PANADOL lor, cant he just ask me to take panadol when i have fever --"

haiyah, i miss anderson man! ): i miss playgrounds soooooooooooooooooo much suddenly. ): i still rmb when i was sick, either pat or xiying they all will come visit me one lar. or i'll go northpoint to meet them. cos we live quite near wat. now wanna meet ppl to copy notes also must go all the way to parkway.

ohh and im going cambodia in dec! xinyi smsed me this morning and told me we're both in (: think yiteng is in also. haha. then i couldnt get back to slp alr. so exciting right. can train me to be not so tofu. maybe can lose weight also! (: (:

sometimes i think that im too sensitive and thinking too much, but sometimes i think that im thinking too much that im thinking too much. HAHAHA. dont understand? too bad.

CIRCULAR MOTION IS TOTALLY DIFFICULT. ):

its 7.30pm alr. and im supposed to complete circular motion and grup 2 metals tutorials by today. wish me luck lar.

{ danced @ 7:17 PM )

Monday, August 07, 2006

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man, long holiday ahead after tmr, what perfect timing. i needed rest.

first time in weeks listening to chinese songs. the english songs zhibo sent got me hooked for quite some time. couldnt stop listening to boa's songs while watching her mvs too. man can she dance! how i hoped i hadnt quit chinese dance TWICE. its gotta be one of my greatest regret, cos dance seems really nice, if i had known it earlier i'd get so attached to it. jitterbugs is just not very good i feel, and i shant even talk abt studio wu. anqi says its really nice but i seriously doubt so. *shrugs*

think im officially quitting volleyball yeah.

no cheerleading tmr. )): i loooooooove stretching although i suck at it. i'll improve okayy! i really wanna fly soon, but im still stuck at loading lar. ooh well, at least they didnt ask me to base. soooo looking forward to cheerobics 2007, go denvers! ((:

IM OFFICIALLY DAMN FAT. oh man, how did i gain so much weight? its really gross and unsightly, i cant even stand looking at myself and feeling all my fats hanging from my arms, tummy, legs, EVERYWHERE. it sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. i miss being skinnnyyyyyyy and tinyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. and i used to eat like now also lar. watever happened to my metabolism! DISGUSTING SHARON. pls diet.

im lik super tired and shagged now, totally dun feel like gg to sch tmr.

DIET!

{ danced @ 9:44 PM )