Pleasure && Pain

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

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past few days have been FUN BUN (:
badminton, bball, tennis, pool, lunch, dinner, slacking, etc
(: (: (:

pw skit making was really fun too, we ran across the bus bay when we were denied permission to take pictures there. don't care. haha. the bus drivers were just laughing at us while we ran across, took our shots quickly, afraid that we'll be chased. haha. kenli didn't want to do it, but we persuaded her to. kaili gave us his first time losing face, by acting cute on the bus. so we all learned/gained something didn't we (:

suay things include pmsing, migraine, forgetting to bring thumbdrive, forgetting to hand up the ocip form TWICE, missing buses now and then, and now my room's light is spoilt ):

lets have more sports days okie, although i was effectively the lousiest player at all the sports we played, but heck. just don't play with qibo can alr. hopefully the other ppl don't mind me :P

feeling kinda empty but filled, slack but packed, happy but frustrated, etc etc. been thinking too much again, im just me (:

sometimes i cant help feeling like a failure. ): i feel that i have really accomplished nothing in the seventeen years of my life. or am i trying too hard to be someone im not? cos i cant seem to do anything properly. if u give it a thought, every single one person has his/her own strengths, but why cant i seem to be able to find mine? is there even something to let me find? sometimes i try to console myself that what i have accomplished are intangible, such as the friendships i have forged, the difference i have hopefully made to ppl ard me. there's only a thin line between being optimistic and deluding myself. everytime i really wanna do something well, i always fail. is it that i dont try hard enough? or is it that im just unlucky, not given opportunities? or is it that i am just born with limited abilities? i used to think that nothing is impossible, as long as im willing to try i'd make it someday.

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
ThatI confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view

{ danced @ 1:17 AM )

Monday, October 23, 2006

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hey all! back from the sleepover at sam's with pearly(the birthday girl), clar and dawn! it was really fun and we shared quite abit of stuff (: we should have more of such nonsense haha.

shall summerise everything. yesterday the 5 of us met up with qibo clems andre and samew for dinner at clarke quay. the guys were being gay as usual so we went home after dinner in a cab, the driver was really entertaining. had loads of fun doing everything and now i'm at home! lol. im lazy to blog abt the details, u guys can only hope that pearly or dawn will blog abt it (:

anyway, i've been thinking way too much for my own good recently. i think i'd be better off if i were really the happy-go-lucky sharon i (hopefully) portrayed myself to be.

i really wonder why am i blogging when i'm either too lazy or unwilling to type out whats in my heart.

oh and talking with PAT on the phone never fails to brighten up my day (:

i really love PEARLY CLARISSA DAWN SAMANTHA! you girls rock.

girls rock.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR PEARLY (:

{ danced @ 7:14 PM )

Saturday, October 14, 2006

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catched world trade centre yesterday and rob-b-hood today!

APOLOGIES to ANDRE samuel qibo clar and samantha! ): ): sorry sorry! because of the fact tt i was born in dec we all couldnt watch some M18 show. apparently tt person thought 1989 was 18 after the birthday, and i was the only one who didn't get through cos my birthday is still not over! ): they ALL changed to world trade centre with me, so nice la im like super touched i didnt expect them to (: but andre was like slping and the movie was real draggy and boring ok. although it was meaningful, but still, ugh. sorrysorry!

cheerleading yesterday was like super fun! although im still aching now, think im stagnant for too long already! >.< but it was super-duper-uber fun! (: (:

VJ open house today! it was quite boring and stuff, i didn't even do the mass dance. aiyah our batch so unenthu lor, everytime mass dance only know how to walk away, today put on a show only. crap. the hip hop performance by dance was really cool, too bad i didnt get to watch the performance in the PT, another type of dance i think. ): the apple soda was not bad, and cookies and cream ice cream was super nice! (:

didnt see samew the whole day, think he's sleeping away at home lol. i cant remember when was the last time i talked to him. slacked for very long at lt1 with clar dawn qibo andre huaru and loke. hahaha. loke is so mean. one kind of bully clar and i. boo. went to parkway mos burger with pearly and clar to chitchat. i havent spoken to dear pearly for very long too! ): i feel so isolated from the people i was once so close to. is there anything wrong with my face? lol. anyway DO NOT EVER BUY THE NEW MOS DESSERT! they charged me $2.80 for a small cup of cream with green tea powder on top. CRAP!

rob-b-hood with kejun was enjoyable (: GO CATCH THE SHOW IF U HAVENT OK! its like super-duper-uber nice. hahaha. maybe its the contrast with world trade centre =X oh and we had some herbal chicken thing for dinner. its like yummy! makes u feel very xin fu (: hee. got some chocolate milk magic ice cream from the pasar malam! its very tasty too ok. i feel like a PIG. but happy jiu hao right (:

life after promos is like WAAAA. cant find a word wonderful enough to describe. its just, WAAAA. haha (: looking forward to clarke quay romantic outing with pat and jenn! (:

pw tmr, results on mon omg!

thanks for the lollipop (:

{ danced @ 10:54 PM )

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

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heys! back from 06s46 chalet (:

sunday
okies! we celebrated pat's bday for her. hahas. didnt take any pics cos my digicam's charger nowhere to be found! bing admitted to taking it ok, but he didn't know where he left it. ugh. was very fun but i couldnt join them for dinner cos i had to go for the bbq.

the bbq was a success in a sense that it saw full attendance from our cls! whee. credits to qibo and dawn i think! great job (: mr loke was there too. he's sucha hip teacher man, the only hip teacher our cls have ok. played captains ball, the guys played soccer, jireh played the guitar, owning each other (qibo and victorian tee) etc. FUN!

but the changi chalet k SUCKS ok. its like an isolated chalet in the middle of nowhere, and we were just some trees away from old changi hospital. =.= the toilets are disgusting and the only better toilet's tap is not working. now we know why is it so cheap. rah. not to mention the bugs that infested the place, the oven that doesn't warm up and the huge mirrors everywhere. we were only allowed to have 7hours of air con a day, thats like not enough even for slping lar. rah.

the place was quite scary so some of us bathed tgtr HAHA. dawn with pearly, me with samantha. lol. but we didnt look at each other lar, were back facing each other. lol.

everybody slpt lar. esp the guys. SHAME.

monday
we all woke up at 10+am for brunch! went changi village and had nasi lemak. i think school's one nicer leh. lol. took a super long time to decide wher to go again. i didnt want to sweat lar. but we settled for cycling to downtown east in the end! whoa its lik 16 of us ok! cycle in a single file with qibo leading! very cool! i was so scared of the cars and everything, its lik dangerous ok. haha. the girls were so shagged cos of the upslopes and stuff, but some of the guys were like "cycle also will tired one meh". crap! oh but going back was a breeze (upslopes become downslopes!) and the front few were all girls ok. girlpower! yay

i fell down la ): bruised! somemore the blueblack was swollen ok. i didnt dare to rub myself ): so now its still swollen hahaha. very gek! cos i had difficulty swerving but i fell down on some straight road cos i was trying to balance on my left leg (dun laugh ok i know its spastic). rah.

samew got lik cramps for alot of times. cos he just had his "hardcore" bball training in the morning. i bet he's going to fall sick after the chalet. jer's bike was very jialat. clar very cute! she kep tfalling into the long grass. clement is going to get period from nxt mth onwards alr. qibo is a v v v good leader/organiser of this chalet ok. cant imagine it without him!

went to the playground to play when we were at pasir ris park la. they all happily go far far, left me this ah ma (haiz) to take care of their bikes. children, tsktsk.

went changi village (again) to have dinner! dawn clar and i didnt want to stay then the guys kept persuading dawn and clar so we stayed in the end lor. then they took one thousand years to decide what they wan to do after dinner ok. so we dun care them and returned to the chalet to bathe and watch american's next top model! (:

after that we played spastic truth or double dare. haha. it was interesting at first lar but it became boring as time went by cos it was the same stuff. samew's double dares were interesting hahaha. laugh until stomachache. the thing ended by qibo dancing pole (clement) dance which was hilarious too. lol.

they one kind of say dunwan slp at night. in the end only left me clar andre jer and qibo. survivors haha. something very scary happened! the 4 of them went bus stop to chitchat cos everyone else slp alr. i stayed in the chalet lar. then i kept hearing footsteps like very near our room. its like i open my eyes den got footsteps close then dun have. i was so freaking scared i tell u. the 4 of them also came back after like 10mins cos they heard very loud noises of tree branches breaking, they said it sounded like it was just behind them! so scary right. the 5 of us then chatted till 5.30am in hushed voices. lol.

clar andre kejun and i left at 6am plus la. reached home at 8 and slpt till 4! 8 hours of my beauty sleep but i still look like crap now ok. but it was so worth it ok i really had alot of fun! (:

on another note, i dun understand why is everyone in my family except for my dad so freaking selfish.

its impossible to have the best of both worlds isn't it.
sometimes in order to keep something, u'll lose other things.

{ danced @ 5:39 PM )

Saturday, October 07, 2006

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this is a lil' late but still..

PROMOS ARE OVER!

wahaha.

my math sucks though, credits to not touching math until the day before the paper. its weird how my favourite subject became the subject i detest most. ): the paper was so awfully easy, but, sigh. ah whatever.

econs was manageable thanks to our mr. loke, whose lessons turned increasingly helpful nearing the exam. haha.

chemistry wasn't as demanding as expected, its just the mcqs. considering that i've only spent one and half days mugging for it (while gorging on fries and milkshakes, grr).

physics was quite tough i think, to think that i spent so much time on physics. should have used that time for math!

so i didnt really mug my best, but its still over. HAHA. OVER OK.

nice new blogskin to celebrate! (:

looking forward to 06s46 bbq/chalet tmr! oh and going out with dearest pat anqi qiao jenn edmund kejun fabby!

since i won't be able to blog tmr..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAT! I LOVE YOU! (:

{ danced @ 4:28 PM )