Pleasure && Pain

Saturday, November 25, 2006

>>>

i saw the three stars in a line again today. maybe they've always been there, its just that i don't see them.

i can feel the world zooming past me, but i'm not making any effort to catch up.

cheerleading was fun as usual (: looking forward to chalet (:

been eating quite alot. ): DIET!

{ danced @ 11:52 PM )

Friday, November 24, 2006

>>> my first day at work

first day at work!

earned $36 after deducting $6 for the nametag, cheat my first hour. haha.

the people there are really friendly and nice, but its tiring and a lil' sian lar. don't really feel like working alr hahahahaha. but i shall continue (:

3 blisters on my left foot. ouch.

desmond and i actually left early to catch the last bus home. being suay as usual, i missed my last bus even though i reached the bus stop 30mins before the last bus was supposed to come. desmond missed his last bus while waiting for me to get onto the bus first. so we both missed our bus. =.= so we rushed back to ritz to take the free transport home. reached home at 1am. so tired!

but hey, thanks desmond for being sucha gentleman (:

updating this while waiting for my hair to dry.

i guess its my way of telling you what's happening in my life now.

so this hols would be work trg work work trg trg work. and the cycle repeats. however this will only hold true IF and only if i don't quit my job. knowing me, .... sigh.

actually i won't mind if people don't celebrate my birthday for me, its not even a big deal to me. so my point is its okay if u guys don't have the time or what, its the thought that counts. yeah.

memories keep flooding back. but no matter how they make you feel, they're just memories after all.

i hope i didn't sound too emo.

{ danced @ 2:38 AM )

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

>>>

i FINALLY bought my charger! (:

and i got my mummy to promise to bring me to bugis on monday. shopping! i seriously need more clothes.

bought a pink bag, a black top and a denim skirt! (:

retail therapy works, i think.

in case i appear like i only know how to spend money, i'm starting work tmr. according to desmond they'll send us back home, which is great. (: work is good.

i desperately need to lose weight.

guess i'll not be going for the fourthree dinner in view of my diet. sorry guys ): besides, its my shopping day with mummy (:

i guess i never recovered.

{ danced @ 9:40 PM )

Sunday, November 19, 2006

>>> step up

caught step up again. this time round its with my sis (: feel like watching again. reminds me of jiji, who caught a cinderella story seven times in the theatres. mad guy.

this is overdue, but there you go (:

my first two cheerleading events (:

patience is a virtue sharon.

{ danced @ 8:34 PM )

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

>>>

barely slept the last two nights.

actually, i feel that i don't even know myself anymore.

i'm sorry.

{ danced @ 8:38 PM )

Sunday, November 05, 2006

>>>

sharon is back from another chalet again! haha. 2103 chalet at downtown east was really madness, laughed so much. i almost forgot how it feels like to laugh like this with jenn. this is what a chalet should be like man, do everything together, laugh like mad at night, gamble loads, giving each other meaningful looks, suaning some people forever, etc. man im alr missing everything! hopefully yiqiang will go book another chalet again hahaha next wk next wk :P

if u put him into the microwave oven, u'll have roasted pig.
muslims shun him.
after he left, we declare the room to be "NO PORK, NO LARD"
his dear's parents were having him for dinner.
blanket!
jing1 tian1 zi3 zhuo1?
apple juice bottle.
___ the red nose person, have a very shiny nose.
XI1 DE1 DONG4.
etc
(hint: its the same person)

8 ppl bridge, 8 ppl daidee, poker, blackjack, snap, trying to mimic tv scenarios, bring the big mouth back home, stupid games mingzhi and yiqiang couldnt master, ur fate is in ur hands, new year songs, indian songs, lame jokes, alcohol, 42 packets of seaweed we couldnt finish, suan4 ming4, 2103 cls tee, anderson pe shorts, sleeping on beds with chocolate crumbs, stuffing peas into fabby's mouth and ears, huai4 ren2!!, sha3 sha3 fen1 bu4 qing1 chu3, the boy who dances everywhere, the no bicycle sign that was there cos of fabby, laughing at everything and nothing, and so much more altho it seemed like we didnt do anything (:

i almost forgot how much i loved laughing until i had no voice. i didnt realise how much i missed laughing with jenn with selian there. i cant believe habouring the thought that i loved VJ more than anderson.

can we have more? pleasy please?

it'd definitely be more fun with edmund around, and our room will be so much tidier (:

i just realised that we are all so spastic its fun and hip to be spastic man. hahaha.

back to reality. OP+I&R and pw will be over soon. i'll miss pw but life is still sweeter without it (:

holiday to-do list!
#1 eat less!
#2 exercise!
#3 find a job!
#4 ocip!
#5 more chalets?! sleepovers?
#6 bday treat with pearly
#7 watch dvds and spend time with dear (:
#8 clarke quay with pat and jenn
#9 kbox with 2103?
#10 ogl preparation
#11 msia? are we still going?
#12 pilates?
#13 REST
#14 try to do homework?

yupp so yah the most impt few are losing weight, finding a job, catching up with people and slacking ard with u yah. (:

ta-da!
it makes me soooo happy to see u enjoying yourself (:

{ danced @ 2:01 AM )

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

>>>

past few days have been FUN BUN (:
badminton, bball, tennis, pool, lunch, dinner, slacking, etc
(: (: (:

pw skit making was really fun too, we ran across the bus bay when we were denied permission to take pictures there. don't care. haha. the bus drivers were just laughing at us while we ran across, took our shots quickly, afraid that we'll be chased. haha. kenli didn't want to do it, but we persuaded her to. kaili gave us his first time losing face, by acting cute on the bus. so we all learned/gained something didn't we (:

suay things include pmsing, migraine, forgetting to bring thumbdrive, forgetting to hand up the ocip form TWICE, missing buses now and then, and now my room's light is spoilt ):

lets have more sports days okie, although i was effectively the lousiest player at all the sports we played, but heck. just don't play with qibo can alr. hopefully the other ppl don't mind me :P

feeling kinda empty but filled, slack but packed, happy but frustrated, etc etc. been thinking too much again, im just me (:

sometimes i cant help feeling like a failure. ): i feel that i have really accomplished nothing in the seventeen years of my life. or am i trying too hard to be someone im not? cos i cant seem to do anything properly. if u give it a thought, every single one person has his/her own strengths, but why cant i seem to be able to find mine? is there even something to let me find? sometimes i try to console myself that what i have accomplished are intangible, such as the friendships i have forged, the difference i have hopefully made to ppl ard me. there's only a thin line between being optimistic and deluding myself. everytime i really wanna do something well, i always fail. is it that i dont try hard enough? or is it that im just unlucky, not given opportunities? or is it that i am just born with limited abilities? i used to think that nothing is impossible, as long as im willing to try i'd make it someday.

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
ThatI confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view

{ danced @ 1:17 AM )