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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
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why am i still not adapting to vj? guess i never will.



i miss all my friends. the people here are so different. its freaking me out. i miss having someone pei-ing me wherever i go, i miss someone waiting me to go classes tgtr and to sit tgtr during practs. i miss having company after school, even if its just going home tgtr. i miss friends who share secrets with me. i miss having shoulders to cry on when i feel like crying. i miss people being mean to people who bully me. i miss being mean with them. i miss everything about my friends.



maybe its me. in vj i feel so lonely. as if friends are all so superficial. everybody wants to go home after school. i feel like im always sticking irritatingly, like superglue, to people. i just don't like to be alone. ):



finally figured out why some people enjoy jc so much more than sec sch. think they are losers who couldnt and/or didnt want to be active in sec sch. and me, i think im a loser who cant be active in jc.



im a failure to a large extent. i never fail to make wrong decisions, and i never fail to fail at who im doing.



i miss swb. i need to cry with them everyday for 2 weeks. at tt point of time everything seemed so bleak, but aft 2 weeks of crying sessions after sch, everything seemed alright again. such sessions only work when ur not alone.



i really dont feel like doing anything nowadays. i feel tired all the time. i cant mug i cant cry i cant concentrate i cant sleep i cant persuade myself to accept that so many things have changed.



i shall just stone.

{ danced @ 6:54 PM )

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her wants``

lose weight!
become a great cheerleader
stay happy
people ard her to be happy (:

say something``



her past``

10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003;
11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003;
12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004;
01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004;
02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004;
03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004;
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004;
06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004;
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08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004;
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004;
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004;
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004;
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005;
01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005;
05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005;
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005;
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005;
08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005;
09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005;
11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005;
12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006;
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006;
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006;
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006;
04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006;
05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006;
06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006;
07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006;
08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006;
09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006;
10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006;
11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006;

her soulmates``

pat ; anqi ; jenn ; qiao ; fabby ; dean ; luan ; huijuin ; fangyi ; hongxiang ; jacq ; liyin ; shan ; bryan ; jeannie ; eunice ; weijie ; jingjie ; jeremy ; pearly ; dawn ; qichao ; zhiting ; 06S46 ;

credits``

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image ; I
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